the words i wish i said: by caitlin kelly

unrequited love

is the one

that fucks us

all up.

spoiler alert:

as much as she wanted him

she never needed him

sometimes i hope you put mayonnaise on your fries and your mind wanders to the thought of me. sometimes i hope you see a clear blue sky and you remember my eyes lighting up for such a nice day. sometimes i wonder if you still remember my face in all the memories we had. sometimes i wish you were still here, but if you wanted to be then you would be. you chose to leave, oh well.

not the girl that a boy will chase from side of the world to the other. i’m not the girl that all the boys praise and describe her with words like “perfect”. i’m not the girl boys would wait a lifetime for. i’m not the girl you’d see in a romance movie that doesn’t have a sharp bone existing in their body. i’m not the girl they’ll follow all the way to the airport to say goodbye to. i’m not the girl they’ll stand outside the window with a radio for. i’m not the girl they’ll ever need.

to the boy i still love -

i’m sorry

you don’t need

someone to save

you from the tower

just save yourself.

oh honey.

you keep

falling for

the boys

that believe

love is just

a

word.

she’s so delicate

but her love

burns so hard

she gets broken

only trying to

give all her love

spoiler alert:

she still lived.

family can mean

anyone

you’re

willing to

fight for.