One diary entry: THU. APR. 10, 2008 — Better frame of mind than yesterday. Today, just confused. Could be aging process. Times when the mind is clear. Other times, it’s a blur. Curious. Other thoughts. Wonder if I’m revealing too much in conversations? Thoughts unending. Useful? Strange, contorted thoughts. Good? Can be. Thinking is free as long as you keep it inside. However, moment you reveal thoughts, the world pounces; you’re on the outside looking in. Inner thoughts wrapped in a cloak of amiability. Time passing at work. Depressed. Why? Hard to unearth. The mind hides. Mind and body not in sync; the trouble starts. People acting out for reasons unknown to them; become aggressive as a result. Mind concealing the ideas. The individual disconnected. Underlining feelings building. Explosions. Back to reality. Leaving work soon. Back to the living. What’s is that? Wonder. What will I be to the living one million years from now? Odd thought that goes nowhere but down into the depths.
