Sometimes I wish my self-esteem was a bit higher or that I loved myself a bit more than I did back then. I think that’s what I was lacking, that ability to care for myself in a way that would keep me from compromising my mind and body for a relationship that would prove unworthy of my effort. If I would have cared about myself fully, I wouldn’t have sought out a love that you could never actually give me but this is what happened and this is where we are.