The Coldest Girl in Coldtown

’s a rare enough thing to find someone who can see me the way I am, no less to peer down into dark parts of my heart, the parts of me even I don’t want to look at

I love you, you see—and I fear I have no way to say or show it that isn’t terrible, except coming here. I would kill everyone in the world for you, if you wanted

Even when I freed myself, I found new chains

We all wind up drawn to what we’re afraid of, drawn to try to find a way to make ourselves safe from a thing by crawling inside of it, by loving it, by becoming it

Maybe this was who she always was. Always shoving all that muchness down deep inside her where no one had to see

Time is the only thing any of us do have

But if you didn’t believe in monsters, then how were you going to be able to keep safe from them?

We labor under so many illusions about ourselves until we’re stripped bare

If she was so fierce, how come she didn’t just save herself?”

Even my love is monstrous, Tana